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Friday, November 5th, 2004
9:02 pm	Hey everyone sorry I haven’t updated in long time. To be honest I just didn’t feel like writing because I didn’t have much to talk about. I think I am finally over my ex, I don’t know why it was so hard to get over him but then again I really wasn’t trying until I started to like someone else. I really like this other guy a lot but I am unsure if he likes me in the same way. We were supposed to do something together last week but he said “where were you, I tried to call you” well I don’t know what number he was dialing but it sure in the hell wasn’t mine . I decided just to let it go tho because it wasn’t worth the fight. I have been text messaging him all day since I stayed home from school. All my friends think I stayed home just because I was sick. I really stayed home because my dad had my doctor refereed me to a specialist for my stupid birthmark that he wants me to have removed. I didn’t want my doctor to have anything to do with it because I go to school with her son and I knew it would get spread all over ths school so I had to go to Champion to pick up my records from her to take them to this doctor in Poland Ohio. They did some stupid tests to see if my birth mark is malignant and told me even if it comes back negative I am going to have to get it removed soon because I am at high risk of it developing into something. The doctor took my parents out in the hall to talk to them for like 10 minutes but it seemed like forever which really annoyed me because then they started to take some pictures of it and showed me on a computer image what they would be doing to remove it. I don’t know why but I don’t want anyone to know about it. I guess I just really feel stupid about it, I am really afraid to death of having to get it removed. After I left the doctors I was really upset over everything. We went to the Olive Garden for lunch and then I was going to go back to school because one of my friends called and needed to talk to me about something. I went home and changed to go back to school but my dad told me he already had the doctor fax over an excuse for the whole day and he told me that what ever my friend wanted could wait. I told him that I really couldn’t miss 3rd and 4th period because I need to get good grades in those classes this time and he told me that one day wouldn’t make a difference anyway. Well after school Nicole called me and bitched because she got caught trying to play her stupid games with us again. This time she hurt Krystal by starting shit again. Now me and the guy I like are fighting....I am going to watch a moive and try to forget about everything Current Mood: worried Current Music: I don't wanna be
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Saturday, August 28th, 2004
11:47 pm	I really feel like shit right now. I found out that my ex thinks that I am ugly and that he has a crush on one of my friends on the soccer team. I cant blame him for liking her, she is a really nice person and everything. When I found out that he liked her and how he thought I was bad looking I just started to cry. I stopped crying long enough to call Jill but she couldn't talk on the phone and I didn't want to get online. I swear that I feel like he just dumped me all over again. Maybe he just dated me because he was desperate like everyone said. While I am writing this I am still crying. I never thought that I could care about a guy so much that it would hurt me like this. I have always been the type to try and push people away when I think they are getting too close but I made the mistake to let him in and now no matter what I do I cant get him out. Towards the end I really tried to push him out because I knew he would end up hurting me. I feel really stupid writing this right now but I don't know what else to do. I really thought after I seen him at the football game last night that he liked me because someone I really trust and consider one of my best friends told me he was looking at me a lot. But I guess he never did care about me and that he never will. I deserve to be miserable right now, I know when I was dating him I was far from the perfect girlfriend. It is all my fault I let all of this happen. I am supposed to transfer into his honors geometry class in order to avoid Mrs. Robert's (she really hates me she gave me three cards the first day of school!) class again this year. I told my mom that I didn't want to transfer into that class because of him and I think she understands so I don't think she will force me to go. I swear if she makes me go into that class I seriously don't know what I would do. I just want to forget about him buy yet I cant Current Mood: no words can describe Current Music: Don't tell me its over Blink 182
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
10:19 pm	The past few days have really sucked. I don't know how to even begin to explain everything. I have had one of my friends calling me almost everyday this week to bitch about my other friends. I don't get how she can act so nice to there face and then talk shit like she does. Jessica C. and Heather have been bitching that I have been a snob because I never do things with them anymore. They wish that I "was like I was when I fist moved here." It is not my fault that they go to public school and that I never get to see them. Soccer takes up so much of my summer and when I tried to explain that to them they got all bitchy on me. Everyone in my house has been fighting because my stupid sister has been so greedy. She thinks the world revolves around her! She started crying that no one pays any attention to her and it got my parents fighting because my dad gave her the credit card thinking it would make everything OK like it has in that past. My sister went shopping and everything was OK until my mom found out that my dad went against her and gave my sister the credit card again after she lost it a week or so ago. She bitched at my dad that he cant just keep buying us things to make us happy. My dad has been bitchy ever since then. I think that it is so stupid that they are fighting over this kind of stuff. My sister doesn't even seem to care, she thinks that it is not her fault at all. My dad tried to make it up to my mom so he went and bought her these stupid diamond earring she wanted. BIG MISTAKE. My mom refused to take the earring and just bitched that it proves her point that he thinks he can buy his way out of thing. I would have taken the earring even though I don't have my ears pierced! Then today my dad went to the school to fight with my principal about the Spanish teacher I have this year. She was supposed to fix it but she never did even after my dad called her last week to bitch at her about it. She told my dad that she cant change it but maybe if he donated more money to the foreign launage department she could see what she could do. My dad got so pist because he already donates to the school and gets some of his friends to donate. Then she told my dad that I have to serve some stupid cards I got last year or she will hold my grades from me. He proceeded to tell her to stick the school up her ass and made a big fuss. Then right after that I had to go to the soccer game that I really didn't want to go to because I would have to deal with kllie. I really didn't feel like letting her give me another black eye like she did last week on "accident". But I went anyway and got to play a little varsity which was great. My dad had to ruin that for me though because he fought with my coach about how he yelled at me last game for not controlling my halfbacks (kllie and Rachel). My dad went to the car to sit for the rest of the game after being an ass as usual. Now he is asking what he can do to make it up to me and how he "has had a bad week." Too top it off my ex didn't even speak to me today and just was really rude in general. Current Mood: embarrassed
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Saturday, August 7th, 2004
2:39 am	OK I was supposed to have a date with Thad tomorrow but lets just say that didn't go well at all. When I called him last night he put me on hold for about 30 minutes just because I haven't called him back in 9 days. I just didn't know what to say to him and I don't feel right calling him when I like someone else. He finally did say he would go to the movies but now that I think about it I don't want him to go. I honestly don't know what my problem is anymore? Its like I don't want to be happy. When I talked to Thad today about going to the movies I basically uninvited him and we had "a little talk." I didn't know what to say to him and he just ended up making me feel like an asshole like I deserve. The winecolors that I drank before helped me though like they always do when I am nervous or have to do something I am unsure about. I know I blew it with Ron because of me not showing him how much I really did care about him. I never called him and didn't really do anything with him. I really regret not getting to kiss his soft lips more then once. Our fist kiss was fast but I really wanted more. On the next date I didn't get to kiss and after that we didn't see each other at all and ended up breaking up. I really still want him back but I don't know what I could do to get him back. I regret how I always mistreat the guys I care about. I was so afraid of screwing things up with Ron that I ended up doing it anyway. Jill is right I probably should move on...now if only it was so easy. My grandpa is doing better in the hospital so that is one good thing I have going for me. On Sunday after our family dinner we are supposed to go up there to visit again. I r don't like going to the hospital because I know that some people go there and never come back. The main reason I want to be a doctor is so that I can help people and just feel like I have made a difference in there life's. I am really worried about my friend Jill she seemed really upset when I talked to her online tonight. I hope that she is OK and that she isn't upset anymore. I don't know why but I get really protective of all my friends and hate seeing them get hurt in anyway. Well I got to go my mom is bitching that I am still online. Current Mood: worried Current Music: Hands down Dashboard Confessional
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Friday, July 30th, 2004
1:56 am	Some much to think about but yet my mind is blank I really don't know what to think right now. I found out the other day that my grandpa has colon cancer but really didn't think anything of it until just a little while ago when my grandma came over crying. I guess I just never though that another person in my family would get cancer. I really wish that there was a cure. I know friends that have lost family members to it or have family members facing it right now so please pray for all of them. was on a little hunting trip today lol. I was looking for Steve because I wanted to bitch at him for not calling Jill. I think I went a little too far and got Jill mad at me but I really didn't mean too. I was just trying to help. Jill is one of my bestfriends and has always been there for me so I would do anything for her. I really made an ass out of myself trying to find him today but I really didn't care. I even ended up not talking to Thad when he called because I was still looking for Steve. I plan on going early to soccer tomorrow just to look for him again. His hands better be broken because that is the only excuse I am taking for him not calling her. All of his stupid class thinks that she hurt him when they dated but they are all so full of shit, It wasn't all her fault as much as they would like it too be. His class is really awful to say the least. The girls that try to make my life hell are from his class and caused me and Ron to breakup. Lately they are getting even more pissed off because I don't let them know they get to me. I just blow them and Ron off. There has been other stuff going on (I need to make an update about Thad) but I don't have time to finish my update right now so I will just make another entry when I get time. Current Mood: blank Current Music: Anyone Anyone Dashboard Confessional
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Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
11:07 pm	Jill was right again how stupid could I be a simpleton could see that you're no good for me Jill was right again! I thought that I could deal with the little bitches from my exs school but I was really wrong. When she said they were bad I didn't think that they would be this fucking bad. They have really been trying to make my life hell and so fat they have because I have let them. I cared too much about my ex's stupid ass that I couldn't see what the hell I was getting myself into. I really tried to let them go but they are always finding a way to bring up his name or to get in my face. I swear I really wanted to punch kelie today and I almost did, the only things that stopped me is what Jill said and how it would just let them win at there stupid little game. I really don't know what to do. This one annoying girl from Ron's school got my sn from someone (I think it was either the coach, Kelie or Ron) well anyway I put it so only people on my buddylist could see me but I really wanted to talk to Ron so I put it so everyone could see me. Next thing I know the stupid bitches are IMing me. Now I have it so only people on my buddy list can see me and I make the mistake of changing it again! Today I had to deal with Ron the whole day because the girls team and the guys who are goalies had practice at the same time. I don't know why I got upset when I seen Kelie and Ron talking but I did. I had Erica go for a jog with me around the field instead of getting a drink because I would have to go over by them to grab my water. Then when Ron finally did try to talk to me I blew him off. I really wanted to talk to him but I knew he would just end up hurting me again if I let him get the best of me. The only good thing about soccer today was that I had to do slide tackles and Kelie was my assigned partner so that was a little fun for me. Then after practice the coach had to have a little talk with me.....He asked that whatever problems I have with those girls I put it aside or I will find myself on the bench. I didn't even think that anyone noticed that we wernt getting along because I didn't make it obvious. I have been letting it go most of the time. I have tried to avoid them or atleast "act" nice to them when the coaches are around. I bet one of the stupid girls told the coach I was being mean. I hate having to be nice to them when I hate them so much! Current Mood: aggravated
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Monday, July 12th, 2004
4:06 am	Well, I just got off the phone with one of my friends a little bit ago and I still cant sleep! Talking to her is always fun though and she puts me in a good mood. She is one of those friends who you know you can really trust and is always there when you need her. I am really looking forward for soccer and basketball tomorrow because I heard Kelie is going to be coming. I really cant stand the girl for some certain reasons I wont discuss but I am looking forward to have her as my freshman buddy :) She hasn't come to a single practice so everyone on the team has been running for her stupid spoiled ass. I plan on having her makeup for all the running I have had to do for her. I don't get how she can be "too tired to come to practice" when she probably dose nothing. As you can tell I really don't like her much and it is for way more then skipping practice. I decided to not let my parents ruin basketball for me so I called the coach today and told him he was right. I am really trying to change my life and do what makes me happy regardless of my parents. I realized the past few months I have been a complete whinny bitch to all of my friends and people I care about. I really owe my friends for always being there for me regardless of everything. I didn't even realize what a bitch I was being until I really had some time to think about it this last week. I have been blowing friends off, ditching them and just plan out being a bitch for no reason. I guess I took all of my frustrations out on them and I am sorry for doing that. Well I am going to go because if our coach moves soccer to 10 I will have to be getting up in not to long and I want to be well rested to have my fun with kelie Sarah Current Mood: content Current Music: Dashboard Confessional Vindicated
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Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
8:48 pm	I really hate how my parents always manage to make me feel like shit. I really do try my best to please them and yet it never is good enough. Today I found myself arguing with them because they were bitching how I "never spend time with them". I see my parents everyday and night..isnt that enough? Then they tell me that they don't think they are going to let me go to Las Vegas with them because of my grades and my attitude. To be honest I really don't care if I go or not because we have went there every summer for the 5 past years. I am so sick of that damn place and they are the only ones who have the fun there. I had soccer today. I am really happy at the way I have been playing lately. I feel so relaxed when I play soccer. It is like my escape from the world. The only part about soccer that stresses me out is that I see my ex at the end of every practice. I like seeing him but it hurts that he wont even talk or look at me now. I wish so badly that things would change between us but I know that my chances of that happening are not very good. I think he is seeing someone now anyway. I just wish I knew for sure if he was or not. I don't blame him for not wanting me. I mean look at me I am fat, ugly, suck at everything I do, annoying and I am as "dumb as rocks" as my parents put it. I wish I could just change everything about myself. No one wants me and no one ever will. Current Mood: lonely Current Music: How Far Martina McBride
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7:21 pm	Why am I never good enough? The words you say are just so mean Choking my self esteem I learned a long time ago my best is never enough I cant be what you want me to be I can just be me why cant you see? Look what you are doing to me Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Angel Sarah Mclachlan
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Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
12:40 am	Thinking alot Today was sort of a boring day. All I did was spend most of the day around the house and then went to see a movie. I zoned-out (fell asleep) during the movie a little. I didn't even realize I did it until my friends told me. I guess I have just had a lot on my mind and haven't been able to sleep much. My parents have been driving me nuts lately about my grades. I use to have a perfect 4.0 and then this year I finished my freshman year with a less then perfect grade point average. Today on the way to pick krystal up my parents mentioned my grades again in the car and I was already stressed out that we couldn't find her house so I just started yelling back at them. Then when krystal got in they turned into there super-nice mode like they always do when people are around. It isn't like I don't feel bad enough already about being dumb. I am like the black sheep of my family. My parents have been paying a tutor to help me with my Spanish over the summer. I like my Spanish tutor she is actually really nice unlike my Spanish teacher I had this year. She seems to think I understand it and that I just need to learn how to relax more on tests. Hopefully I do much better this year. Last Wednesday at the end of practice I quit the basketball team. I haven't told anyone yet. I don't even know why I did it. I guess I just got frustrated like I always do. The coach told me not to quit and how I should give it another year. He said that my main problem is that I don't have any confidence in myself. I guess I am always just afraid of messing up. When the coach asks if I want to be put in I always say no and make up some type of excuse. I just don't want people to get mad at me or hate me if I mess up. I honestly do not know what to do? Lately I have just been acting like everything is fine when really I do not know what the hell to think. I still feel guilty about kissing TJ. I don't know why but I do. It felt really good when he was kissing me but then I would think about was my ex and start to back away from TJ. I don't understand why I just cant let him go. He is a complete asshole to me most of the time and yet I keep going back for more. When I said I cared about him I wasn't lying like he was. All I need is to hear him say that there is no chance for us and I will try to move on. When I talked to him tonight and asked him what he was doing he said "waiting". I asked him about it and he got defensive again. It is really driving me nuts, what was he waiting on that he got so defensive when I asked him about it?????????????????????????? Well I am going to go try to sleep Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Blinded Third eye blind
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Sunday, July 4th, 2004
10:38 pm	Well, today I spent the day with my family for the 4th. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I was really happy I didn't have to go to my dad's friends cookout. I kinda feel bad for he guy because his wife left him but the truth is he deserved it. I went to the bonfire and TJ came with his dad. It was ok but I really didn't get to see that much because everyone was around. They had some music going and my cousin started to grind with her boyfriend. I asked TJ if he wanted to go dance and he said why not. I really suck at dancing so he tried to help me but I ended up giving up because I really have no rhythm. I really need to learn how to dance! Then some of the people started to shoot off fireworks so we all sat to watch them. By the end of the night it was raining so everyone started to leave and I got to see TJ for the last time. I felt kinda bad about always backing off when TJ was kissing me so when I seen an opening tonight I started to kiss him. It didn't last really long though because he had to leave and he didn't really seem to want to. I was going to go see fireworks with some friends but my parents wouldn't let me go and the truth is I would have felt off if my ex showed up. I really want to move on because I know he doesn't like me and it is hopeless.
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1:57 am	HAPPY 4th OF JULY Today was just like I thought it was going to be. My relatives are in for the 4th and everyone is running around like chickens with there heads cut off. I think I finally decided that I am just going to go to the bondfire to watch the fireworks. I am allowed to invite one person to go to it with me so I was going to invite my ex but I didn't get a chance to talk to him so I was thinking of inviting someone else just to have so fun with him before he leaves. * Got up around 7 * Went over my grandmas to help clean * Went and bought a crate of corn * Went to buy metal sticks for the bondfire (you know the thing you roast marshmallows and hot-dogs on) * Had to go with my sister to pick up the food my mom ordered * When I got back home my relatives were all over so I visited with them * Went over to watch them stuff the pig for the bondfire * Tried to call my ex * Got the sleeping bags ready for the bondfire * Then went to have dinner with family * Got home and got online As you can tell I am dead tired. I am going to go to bed I would like to wish all of you a happy 4th of July.
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Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
2:06 am	I don't know why I haven't been able to sleep the last few nights. I know I will be forced to get up early tomorrow because we have relatives coming in for the 4th. I really do like most of my relatives but it is just such a pain to have them coming in on the same day. I wanted to go to the fair down town with one of my friends but I had no clue my relatives were coming in as early as they are so it looks like I wont be able to go with her unless she doesn't mind me dragging my whole family with me lol. I think she had softball anyway though? I told my sister that if she gets out of having to spend tomorrow with them that I am going with her to escape. I don't know why most of them have to come in early Saturday? For the 4th I have to go to a family cookout over at my grandmas and then one of my dad's friends is having a cookout so we will mostlikly have to go to it too. I haven't decided where I want to go watch the fireworks at yet though. I am thinking I might just go to the bondfire and watch them shoot off fireworks there. Or one of my friends told me NF has good fireworks so I might just go there. I seen fireworks tonight in the town I live in, so I don't think I will go there again on the 4th. I guess I wont make that decision until last minute Sunday. I am going to be happy just as long as I get to shot off the fireworks we bought without getting in trouble. My mom thinks I will end up getting hurt or get in trouble because they are illegal to shoot them off around here. Don't all mom's worry too much? Well I am going to go try to get some sleep.. Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: Yellowcard View from heaven
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Friday, July 2nd, 2004
3:56 am	Well, it is about 4am and I still cant sleep. It seems like I can never sleep anymore. I just got off the phone with Kim, talking to her never makes me feel better but a little winecooler helped. I had a talk with my ex tonight and we seemed to be really getting along for the most part at first. Then I asked how the girl he left me for was doing and he went nuts on me. He really made me feel like shit and crashed all my hopes for getting back with him soon. Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut for a change? Did I really have to ask about her? I guess I cant blame him for getting defensive over it. I know I would have. I really just want him back but I think I really messed it up once again. I mean I want him back but I just don't know how to go about doing it. I know I have to call and talk to him on the phone but I am afraid he wont want to talk to me. Then the whole issue of me kissing that guy has got me thinking. I know I really shouldn't have kissed him but one of my friend told me that I really did nothing wrong because I am still not together with my ex. I really trust my friend because she is usually right about everything even if I don't like to admit it at time. I just don't understand that I feel so guilty if I did nothing wrong. I don't even think I am going to go to sleep tonight because if I do I will be a real bitch when I have to wake up. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: Alicia Keys If I Ain't Got You
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Thursday, July 1st, 2004
6:02 pm	I MESSED UP BIG TIME....................... Well, I just got back form my sisters. We spent most of the time together today because my mom wanted us to "bond." Something happened when I was at my sisters.....I was playing with this kid named TJ who came down to spend the 4th of July with his dad. His parents got a divorce about 6 years ago so he only sees his dad a few times a year. I seen him out side playing soccer and my sister was in the shower getting ready to go out so I decided to go outside to talk to him. I had talked to him a few times before because my sister and his dad were friends. He was really nice like always and I started to play soccer with him for a while. I went back inside to see if my sister was ready yet but she told me to give her about 20 more minutes so I went back outside. He came over and asked me if I wanted to go over his house. I said yeah because I knew my sister was going to take more then 20 minutes. I went in and went down into the basement to watch a movie with him on the couch. I noticed that it was starting to get late and if I didn't leave soon my sister would get pist. I got up to leave and he told me he had to tell me something first so I sat back down. He leaned over and started to kiss me. I didn't eve really try to pull back. I had no clue what the hell I was doing but he told me just to relax. After a few minutes I started to ask myself what the hell was I doing. I got up as fast as I could and left. My sister was inside waiting to bitch at me and soon after we left. I am so glad that he is leaving in a few day because I really made an ass out of myself. I don't even know why I let him kiss me. I don't even like him and when I was kissing him I was thinking about someone else. I just don't know what to do now. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: I don't wanna know Mario Winans
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Tuesday, June 29th, 2004
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Monday, June 28th, 2004
10:19 pm	Just a Monday Hey everyone sup? Not to much here. It is about 2 in the morning and I still cant sleep. I have had so many thing on my mind. I have been thinking about my ex-boyfriend a lot lately. Ever since we kissed all I can think about is when I will get my chance to kiss him again. I know he really hurt me when he dumped me but recently I got the feeling that we might have a chance again and I am willing to let him destroy my heart all over again. I am not very smart am I? I really care about him and to be honest I haven't stopped. Every time I see him I get so happy and fall for him all over again. Today I even went to basketball practice just because I knew he would have soccer practice around the same time and I really wanted to see him....Basketball practice was such a waste because I didn't even get to see him. Not to mention that I found out that we wont even have soccer on Wednesday and Thursday so I might not get to see him the till next Wednesday. I want to talk to him but I don't know what to say to him when we talk because he is the shy type or as Jill puts it the type without a personality. First thing in the morning I am going to try and call him to do something with me so wish me luck. My sister is really starting to drive me nuts. My sisters husband has been going out of town a lot for long periods of time which means that she is always over bothering me now. It is not that I dislike my sister it is just that she has major flirting issues....I swear sometimes she will flirt with anything that has a dick. My sister is really smart and has a job that pays her really good money but yet she is always using my dad's credit cards or getting money off of him. My parents even helped her to get a nice little house but she is never there because she is always over here. She even has a pool so I don't know why she wouldn't want to spend her days out by it. Well I am going to go because I have to get up early tomorrow
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Sunday, June 27th, 2004
1:57 pm	Thinking.... This is my first entry! One of my friends just got a journal here and so I figured that I would give it a try. Today really hasn't been that exciting.... I just got done from Sunday dinner at my grandmas and will probably end up baby-sitting again tonight. I swear that this Katie girl I baby-sit is a monster. I really don't know if she is in charge or if I am. Last week when I was baby-sitting I went to make a phone call and she grabbed it out of my hand and told me that I was not allowed to use my cell phone. I swear she better be a little nicer tonight because I am not really in the mood to deal with her attitude again. Sometimes she is so easy to watch and other times she drives me nuts. I think I am going to try and get out of baby-sitting tonight....that is if I can get ahold of Thad to go to the cook-off with me. I got a message from Thad on Friday asking if I wanted to do something this weekend so I called him back yesterday but I called to late for us to do anything together. I really cant wait for soccer this week ...that is I just can't wait to see my ex at soccer :) I still care about him a lot and when I get to see him it makes me so happy. I really wanted to talk to him a little on Thursday but I had to leave for a basketball practice. I have practice 3 days this week so hopefully I will see him all three days. I still cant stop thinking of him. I even tried to call him to go to a car show because I know how much he loves cars. When I tried to call him no one was at home and I didn't want to leave a message on his cell phone so I hung up. I was stupid for letting him break my heart the first time but yet I am willing to let him break it all over again just for another chance with him. When we ended our relationship it wasn't the best of ending to say the least. I have had a few boyfriends in the past but I never really had any feeling for them......but this time I fell hard and I still haven't gotten up from the fall no matter how hard I try. Well I got to go...please let me know what you think :) Current Mood: confused Current Music: Something Of Value Yellowcard
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